Full term 37 weeks

I am done being pregnant but terrified of delivery. And the responsibility of a human being. But I can't help thinking what he will look like. How he he will be. I cannot wait to meet you York Arlo walker! I just know I'm going to be in love with you! Over a couple of weeks I've had 3 beautiful baby showers with all my friends and family. I'm so grateful that I have so many people in my life that love me and are here for me no matter what. Not to mention my husband! Who was incredibly understanding on our 1 year aniversary :) which was beautiful a day or two in yellow stone together was perfect. I love taking Casey places he has never been! The nursery! Oh it's coming along. The changing table is painted and in the room. All it's missing is knobs which I need to go pick out. Pictures to come! The crib is here minus the bedding but I think that may come after the baby. I'm so happy with the way it's turning out! I feel happy and grateful! Which is a lot for me I'm jot quite the happy pregnant girl! Now all that's left to do is wait around for baby to get here I'm guessing July 20th

LIST OF CRAP TO WORRY ABOUT

Listing it may help me release it? well its worth a shot.

1. temple prep
2. helping Casey prepare to get the priestood so he can bless York when he is born
3. finish the baby changing table ( sand, paint, find legs for it.)
4. hang shelves in baby room
5. still waiting for package from zulily
6. get a birthday gift for Justin, and for Carly
7. Fathers day?! not prepared at all.
8. pick out an outfit to bring York home in
9. last day of work is Friday. Nervous
10. find a cosigner for a private student loan for Casey for summer. ( very important)
11. help mom finish baby bedding.
12. assemble crib in nursery
13. finish window valance
14. touch up the stripes in the nursery
15. clean out car
16. get apartment carpets cleaned before baby comes
17. borrow a bassinet and buy some bedding to use in it.
ive got four weeks until York is Due... and all this has got to be done. Some of it much sooner. : ( im overwhelmed but it feels good to have it written out.

34 weeks down.

#1 goals for this second year of marriage is to take more pictures. Almost the entire first year of marriage now I have not documented anything except for the purchase of my dogs... yeah I look like a crazy dog person if you look through any of my cameras. which I have multiple of charged and sitting around... I have no excuses whatsoever.
#2 My little sister Jennifer turns 18 today. her only complaint was that she was going to be in hawaii which means she cant have a birthday party with her friends.... spoiled much?
#3 tired of being pregnant and but also super excited and nervous because I officially wont have a job come this Friday. I will have to train myself to become a house wife. could be fun : )
#4 I NEED to Find a book to read its been a long time.
#5 ME and Casey first year anniversary is coming up on the 11th... too bad im like 8 months pregnant or i would be more excited, still trying to figure something simple that i can do in my condition that will be memorable : ( ]
#6 make and begin my to do list before the baby comes.. ive only got six weeks and way more than six weeks worth of things to check off... York needs to wait until the day he is due to come cause i might be ready but the house is not!

!33 Weeks and Counting!

This means I only have 7 more weeks of an aching body. with a human moving around inside me.. I feel like my baby is more violent than others. My morning sickness is definatley back... and I pee more than any person ever should have to. I always thought my bladder was shot before I got pregnant.... boy was I wrong. I've got only this week and next and I am finished at work. Im really nervous about staying home but I have a huge list of things that need to get finished. #1 the nursery which I have a feeling may take until a little after York arrives. That leaves me with plenty of projects to keep myself occupied until he gets here. I am so nervous for him to get here but so ready for him to give me my body back ( not that he wont have total control when he gets out). Being a mom at 20 is not something I ever saw for myself  but im taking life as it comes. no more plans according to Jenessa there is no point : ). weirdest thing is my little sister graduates high school tonight! nothing could be more weird. And in August she will be moving into the BYU dorms to go to nursing school. Im so proud of her but she is making me feel old. I think thats enough random journal entering for the day!

Congratulations Jennifer. : )

32 weeks until Due Date.

Let the countdown begin! 

8 weeks to go. Can barely walk my hips and feet hurt so bad. Now I am starting to have to wear nursing pads.... soooo fun. Basically I thought the sickness part was supposed to go away in the third trimester. Everything is getting harder and i'm only getting heavier. Ready for York to come : ) wayyyy ready. Wondering how much longer I should stay at my job... cause im dying here haha.

Day #10 person you did the most ****** up things with

This picture is from forever ago! Me and Lc are always doing the craziest stuff. I miss being with her basically everyday. She always has my back and I will always have hers. The memories of the things we did in high school are unbeatable : ) I wish I had the time to spend doing stupid things with her again. We are both lucky we had Jenessa to kick us back in line or I dont know where we would be.

#9 picture of someone who has gotten you through the most

No matter how many dumb things I do. Or how many unimportant fights we get into. I feel like Jenessa is always there for me to talk to. She will always be there. I wanted to put someone like my mom or my sister but my mind just keeps going back to her. Jenessa has been like a sister to me especially when there was no one else. She always is taking care of me. Thanks J ness for everything. I hope we keep in touch at least forever.