Almost ten weeks old

I feel like we are in full routine! Though from the looks of my house you would t think so. York is do mobile I can't leave him anywhere. But he does sleep 6 hours straight at night sometimes now :). He smiles and just sorta laughs. I can't wait to hear a full giggle. Me and Casey are just in love with him! We never thought we'd live our little surprise as much as we do. I'm obsessed with him! Casey is starting school in January and I've made an insane choice not to go back to school! I couldn't leave my baby for any amount of time! Me and Casey went on a date for the first time and left York with my mom. I started crying when we got in the car but it was wonderful to be with my husband. Well after alot of deliberation and because its taking forever for Casey to get his associates we are moving in with his parents. We will miss our own space but our so grateful that its even an option. This wAy we will save alot of money. And wishing 6months to a year we should be back in our own place since we will be moving away so Casey can get his bachelor degree. Life is busy I never thought staying home with my baby would be so much fun and so much work.
-the sleep deprived lady with a baby York for a best friend :)

Little man

I have known since day one we have what you would call an "overdeveloped child." of there is such a thing. It's like we cooked him too long. Not to mention he was 9lbs. The day we brought him home he was holding his head up. Week two kicking off with his feet and smiling! He is fast. Now at week 5 my little guy coos. Rolls over. Take his Binky in and out by himself. And today he was on his tummy and army crawled away! What 5 week old thinks he can crawl. This is all fine and dandy fast learner and all. Except for he is extremely mobile so I can't leave his side. So much for peeing by myself!

.Camping trip with Baby.

We are insane people and we took our 1 month old baby on a camping trip.

Insane. 

HE was Warm.

I was not. 

I ended up sleeping in the car : ( 

but I got some really cute pictures : )

.Month one complete.

After fear and months of waiting I went into labor July 16th the actual due date of my baby boy. 

I did not think it was real sitting in the hospital waiting for the epidural (which was a life saving part of labor). It got real really fast. The actual birth went really smoothly I went in the 15th and 10:30pm and York Arlo Walker came out the next afternoon at 2:22pm. Weighing in a wopping 9 pounds! and being 20 inches long! I could not believe that I only got two stitches. and much to everyones surprise and maybe because a little bit of medication I was telling everyone how easy it was and that I was ready for number 2. 

p.s. I am no where near being ready for #2. 

 Casey was so proud of be a daddy. I couldn't help but be overwhelmed with how cute he was following him around the room as he was getting cleaned off. Casey had a giant smile the whole time. it definatley distracted me from me getting stitches eeek.

  Bring baby home was overwhelming. I have a lot of experience with babies being in a family of 9 I always felt like I would feel like i know how its done! this was not the case. I was at a loss for everything. I was having a hard time nursing and everything was more than I expected it to be. after I got diagnosed with post partum I felt extremley defeated! I am and was afraid of taking the medication they offered and it only seemed to occur when I was nursing this brought me to make an extremly hard desicion becuase I believe so strongly that I should nurse my baby. I decided to go to bottles. My relationship with my baby has grown from this I can now bond with my baby : ) and I love him more than ever. I sometimes feel the guilt feeding him a bottle but I know deep down that it is the right thing for us to do and that I am doing my very best

 

  

  I cannot keep up with Casey! He is so great with York. He is always helping and playing with him. HE loves him. I adore the bond they share and i'm really grateful Casey is such a hands on daddy. I always wanted a husband who would come home excited to hold his baby everyday and all my dreams came true.

I am in love with my little family : )!

Full term 37 weeks

I am done being pregnant but terrified of delivery. And the responsibility of a human being. But I can't help thinking what he will look like. How he he will be. I cannot wait to meet you York Arlo walker! I just know I'm going to be in love with you! Over a couple of weeks I've had 3 beautiful baby showers with all my friends and family. I'm so grateful that I have so many people in my life that love me and are here for me no matter what. Not to mention my husband! Who was incredibly understanding on our 1 year aniversary :) which was beautiful a day or two in yellow stone together was perfect. I love taking Casey places he has never been! The nursery! Oh it's coming along. The changing table is painted and in the room. All it's missing is knobs which I need to go pick out. Pictures to come! The crib is here minus the bedding but I think that may come after the baby. I'm so happy with the way it's turning out! I feel happy and grateful! Which is a lot for me I'm jot quite the happy pregnant girl! Now all that's left to do is wait around for baby to get here I'm guessing July 20th

LIST OF CRAP TO WORRY ABOUT

Listing it may help me release it? well its worth a shot.

1. temple prep
2. helping Casey prepare to get the priestood so he can bless York when he is born
3. finish the baby changing table ( sand, paint, find legs for it.)
4. hang shelves in baby room
5. still waiting for package from zulily
6. get a birthday gift for Justin, and for Carly
7. Fathers day?! not prepared at all.
8. pick out an outfit to bring York home in
9. last day of work is Friday. Nervous
10. find a cosigner for a private student loan for Casey for summer. ( very important)
11. help mom finish baby bedding.
12. assemble crib in nursery
13. finish window valance
14. touch up the stripes in the nursery
15. clean out car
16. get apartment carpets cleaned before baby comes
17. borrow a bassinet and buy some bedding to use in it.
ive got four weeks until York is Due... and all this has got to be done. Some of it much sooner. : ( im overwhelmed but it feels good to have it written out.

34 weeks down.

#1 goals for this second year of marriage is to take more pictures. Almost the entire first year of marriage now I have not documented anything except for the purchase of my dogs... yeah I look like a crazy dog person if you look through any of my cameras. which I have multiple of charged and sitting around... I have no excuses whatsoever.
#2 My little sister Jennifer turns 18 today. her only complaint was that she was going to be in hawaii which means she cant have a birthday party with her friends.... spoiled much?
#3 tired of being pregnant and but also super excited and nervous because I officially wont have a job come this Friday. I will have to train myself to become a house wife. could be fun : )
#4 I NEED to Find a book to read its been a long time.
#5 ME and Casey first year anniversary is coming up on the 11th... too bad im like 8 months pregnant or i would be more excited, still trying to figure something simple that i can do in my condition that will be memorable : ( ]
#6 make and begin my to do list before the baby comes.. ive only got six weeks and way more than six weeks worth of things to check off... York needs to wait until the day he is due to come cause i might be ready but the house is not!

!33 Weeks and Counting!

This means I only have 7 more weeks of an aching body. with a human moving around inside me.. I feel like my baby is more violent than others. My morning sickness is definatley back... and I pee more than any person ever should have to. I always thought my bladder was shot before I got pregnant.... boy was I wrong. I've got only this week and next and I am finished at work. Im really nervous about staying home but I have a huge list of things that need to get finished. #1 the nursery which I have a feeling may take until a little after York arrives. That leaves me with plenty of projects to keep myself occupied until he gets here. I am so nervous for him to get here but so ready for him to give me my body back ( not that he wont have total control when he gets out). Being a mom at 20 is not something I ever saw for myself  but im taking life as it comes. no more plans according to Jenessa there is no point : ). weirdest thing is my little sister graduates high school tonight! nothing could be more weird. And in August she will be moving into the BYU dorms to go to nursing school. Im so proud of her but she is making me feel old. I think thats enough random journal entering for the day!

Congratulations Jennifer. : )

32 weeks until Due Date.

Let the countdown begin! 

8 weeks to go. Can barely walk my hips and feet hurt so bad. Now I am starting to have to wear nursing pads.... soooo fun. Basically I thought the sickness part was supposed to go away in the third trimester. Everything is getting harder and i'm only getting heavier. Ready for York to come : ) wayyyy ready. Wondering how much longer I should stay at my job... cause im dying here haha.

Day #10 person you did the most ****** up things with

This picture is from forever ago! Me and Lc are always doing the craziest stuff. I miss being with her basically everyday. She always has my back and I will always have hers. The memories of the things we did in high school are unbeatable : ) I wish I had the time to spend doing stupid things with her again. We are both lucky we had Jenessa to kick us back in line or I dont know where we would be.

#9 picture of someone who has gotten you through the most

No matter how many dumb things I do. Or how many unimportant fights we get into. I feel like Jenessa is always there for me to talk to. She will always be there. I wanted to put someone like my mom or my sister but my mind just keeps going back to her. Jenessa has been like a sister to me especially when there was no one else. She always is taking care of me. Thanks J ness for everything. I hope we keep in touch at least forever.

Day #8 a picture that makes you laugh

LC My best friend. and long lost room mate. Discussing important apartment related issues. I love her so much . No one could come close.

Day #7 A Picture of your most treasured item.

I would guess my Wedding Ring. If I lost it I dont know what I would do. I havnt been able to wear it while I have been pregnant ( too pudgy : ) ) and that has been hard on me. I just love everything that is stands for.

Day #6. person you;d love to trade places with for a day.

I don't want to be anyone else. I would trade places with my younger self. Not because I really regret anything or that I dont love how my life has turned out. But It could have made choices that would have made life easier for myself. Plus I miss seeing my ladies everyday.

Day #5 Picture of your favorite memory

There are so many to chose from this was a hard question. This day came to my mind I believe it was Junior high but it might have been sophmore year. I woke up so angry which is why I went over to talk to STella. We spent the whole day laughing so hard we almost peed ourselves. I just remember feeling relieved and like everything would always be okay if I had these people in my life to help me get through things. Love my Ashley and Stella. Not to mention I got electrocuted by an electric fence this day. :)

Day #4 Picture of your Favorite night

I skipped number 3 because I don't watch a lot of television. 

Nothing can beat the day/night I married my best friend. The only thing that would have made the night better if it were in the temple, but that will be soon enough. We were just so happy to be together. I was so grateful that the whole wedding turned out perfectly how I wanted it. Exactly my taste. It was relief to see all the planning planning  become what I have always wanted. It was amazing to be able to see how happy Casey Was the entire day. I couldn't have asked for more.

DAY 2: Picture of you and the person you have been closest to the longest

My mommy! She is my very best friend in the whole world. I have always told everything to her and always will. She is the most selfless people and kind people I have ever met in my entire life. I am so grateful to have a best friend and a mom like her. I love you mommy.

DAY ONE: Photo Of Your Self with 15 facts

10 Facts about Me 

1. I can never get enough Chinese food! (p.s. or chocolate)

2. I hate shopping (which is super inconvenient) 

3. My favorite movie is Vanilla Sky

4. I dream of owning a red mini cooper ( so far this has not been a practical thing : ( which is why it hasn't occurred) 

5. I want to have 3 kids

6. My favorite state is Oregon 

7. I love to fly. longer the flight happier the girl

8. I hate touching paper

9. I love decorating and making things

10. I feel better about myself when I successfully make dinner instead of takeout

11. I love my family more then anything in the world especially my best friend my mom

12. I am oddly grateful that when I have my baby I will be 20 and not 19 ( have no idea why)

13. I love the rain. not the cold or the wet but sounds it makes

14. I eat pork n beans with my eggs and toast for breakfast ( my  husband thinks that is odd.)

15. I can never remember the band name or song name of any music I like. no matter how much I love it. ( its a tragic problem)

FIRST POST : )

 As a lack of something awesome to start my blog off with I thought I would go with something easy to get the ball rolling. the 30 day picture challenge that oh so many people seem to know about. So here it goes.

Here's the list of what to upload during the 30 days:

1. A picture of yourself with 10 facts
2. A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
3. A picture of the cast from your favorite show
4. A picture of your favorite night
5. A picture of your favorite memory
6. A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
7. A picture of your most treasured item
8. A picture that makes you laugh
9. A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
10. A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with
11. A picture of something you hate
12. A picture of something you love
13. A picture of your favorite band or artist
14. A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
15. A picture of something you want to do before you die
16. A picture of someone who inspires you
17. A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
18. A picture of your biggest insecurity
19. A picture and a letter
20. A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
21. A picture of something you wish you could forget
22. A picture of something you wish you were better at
23. A picture of your favorite book
24. A picture of something you wish you could change
25. A picture of your favorite day
26. A picture of something that means a lot to you
27. A picture of yourself and a family member
28. A picture of something you're afraid of
29. A picture that can always make you smile
30. A picture of someone you miss